RoseSoliloquy

Facade This deceitful facade Who does it think it's fooling? In the day it stands firm and unyielding But at night, when all is silent and dark, it dissipates Allowing the deep, unwanted feelings to surface and lurk about For now, it is the barrier between illusion and reality The seen and unseen But, like a dam, it can only last so long Withholding that tremendous burden To be happy Until the walls of fortitude crumble And the waves of torment and despair, shame and regret Come crashing down in a flood of relentless tears Only to expose the truth Leaving it naked and raw The truth of a girl lost in her mind And the past that

Grass-covered sidewalk two weary legs walking by with nowhere to go

You healed my cracked heart  But later you shattered it     And left me broken

Imagination      I am a goldfish swimming                                    Not a care in mind

You dropped my heart and watched it shatter Like glass Into a million tiny pieces Why did you leave me if you loved me so? I held you in my arms And wiped away the tears that flooded from your heart Why did you go back to her if she hurt you so? You said you didn't love her After all, how could you love the cause of such pain, such torment? You said you could live without her But that you couldn't live without me Only that's exactly what you're doing now Why did you look into my eyes and tell me everything would work out? Did you do it just to fool me? 'Cause I was definitely a fool For loving you so deeply And giving my heart

You, dead on the floor Heaven's glory reflected In your lifeless eyes

Twirl me faster, twirl me faster in your arms Pull me closer, pull me closer to your lips Hold me tighter, hold me tighter to your heart -Never let me let you go

Your tears splash my heart with acid Burning caverns in my soul To be filled only with bleak, black nothingness -I realize I am empty

One last kiss     One last breath     One last hope Of being with you again Of holding your hand Of hearing your sweet laughter     One last kiss     One last breath     One last hope Before you walk out that door The door to my heart... Never to return     One last kiss     One last breath     One last hope Before that cold, hollow cylinder rests firmly against your temple Before all eternity alters itself With one last, blinding blast Before you collapse to the floor Landing in your own scarlet puddle     One last kiss     One last breath     One last hope Before the ambulance arrives in a blue and red flu

I am trapped in the quicksand That is the vast pit of my mind. Lost in the thoughts. Whirling. Twirling. Swirling. A tornado Behind blank eyes. Each memory adrift. Floating. Caught in the whirlwind of time. Eyelids open... Open. Closed. Open. Closed. Blinking and winking Away each tear And each smile. Emotions palpable. Each furry and each worry With dimension. Like a sixth sense That only I share. All 'they' know is what they see Yet they see nothing Just a pale face free of all feeling A chalkboard wiped clean They see no misery ---They know nothing. Of my inner warfare. "Just let it go."   I can't! "Ju

Little Things Please give me a moment, Let us share some time, Let me pass on some wisdom, Little things I've learned in life Always love, And never forget the thrill, And if for some reason, you can't love, Always forgive Always dream, Dream as big as you can, I know that my dreams, Have helped define who I am Always laugh, Even when it's the last thing you want to do, Because, there will be times, When it's the only thing that sees you through Don't forget, All the friends that you make, If you only think of them, They will be beside you always Always believe, No matter what may happen, As long as you do, It's a powe